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Shaking. I never knew that term could be possibly used to describe what I am feeling now, or even believe that it existed. Wasn't it just a word that authors use in books to describe an overwhelming situation where the subject tries to gain control or something?

Heart beating fast, hands shaking until I can't really type, voice stuck in my throat, tounge seems thicker by the second, blocking the opening of my oesophagus as I digest a small piece of information that may seem confusing to me.

It's not that I can't accept it.. it's just surprising even though I knew it would be coming somehow.

Somebody, kick a dent in my self-esteem now.

Things have got to change. I am unshakeable and adaptable to change. I won't let the petty things in life to bother me.

But thinking about petty things is something I like to do. Bodoh.

RANT:
Sitting on a chair cross-legged numbs your legs, but honestly, I find you hiding things from me and not speaking the truth is even more treacherous. It numbs your mind for a while. I wont be all sadistical but its weird how you really, obviously trying to hide that fact from me when I know I don't have to find out from you so easily. suckling pig. not you, I care for you more than to call you hurtful names. I guess I am a bit dissapointed, I'm definiltely not hiding anything. Now it just feels like I shouldn't share any part of my life to anyone. Not worth it. I was just a phase you go through. Your I miss you's don't count. SUMPAH. I never did believe that you missed me.